My Relationship with Food.
Like many Americans, I have an unhealthy relationship with food. And for months (and months and months and month) I’ve been trying to pinpoint what exactly that even means. I’ve been casually journaling what it going on emotionally when I feel those great desires to eat. But, at this point I see no real pattern – and that’s what I am searching for.
I desperately want to find a method to my madness. An answer to my question – why am I overweight? An emotion or state of mind that triggers my eating behavior to go off course, would rest my anxious soul.
But, all that I’ve found is that I like to eat in reaction to a broad range of emotions.
I eat when I’m bored, when I’m stressed, when I’m depressed, when I’m celebrating, when I’m relaxed and when I have absolutely no reason to eat, at all.
And, that just isn’t helpful.
Cause, unlike most addictions – you can’t quit food.
Now, I know what you’re thinking – homegirl, you just love food. You’re right. I do. I love the way chocolate awakens your senses and the way a hearty casserole fills you with warmth. I love the way a crunchy salad changes your perspective. And the way ice cream melts away your worries.
Balance is something the author also write about often. The way she describes her current relationship with food, after losing a whopping 135 POUNDS (HALF HER BODY WEIGHT) is really inspiring.
And, quite frankly, a little depressing. Have you ever wanted something so badly, only to see someone else have it so gracefully, and then you find yourself depressed? Perhaps, even a little jealous?
That’s where I am.
My desire to understand my eating habits, to find peace & balance in my eating behavior, to find the place where I can live fully with food as a friend, not an enemy, is overwhelming. It takes over my brain and controls my thoughts.
I am on this journey to the end, this time. Medifast is an amazing company, who is truly doing wonderful things to help people find their healthiness…and I am honored to work with them as I hit my goal. The 5n1 plan works well with my body and lifestyle – and I know that I CAN do this.
This is a lifestyle change, as Andie has shown me. It goes beyond just hitting a number on a scale. I want this to be something I can maintain. I want this to be my new life.
I crave to ability to find peace with food.